The more I think about it, the more it baffles me. I didn't know my own ring size. How does a man or anyone know your ring size, without measuring ?
I was given a ring a couple weeks ago from someone. I asked him how he knew my size and he just replied because he's god haha. I assume he maybe checked with Pandora if you can return, if it's too big or small and took a guess.
It just feels crazy thinking about it, out of all the ring sizes he got the right size. Well now I know, am a size 52 ring.
Who's read the original Trainspotting book ? The part at the beginning they were at a pub drinking and mentions "McLean" and other names. Mclean is my dad, he's friends with Irvine Welsh.
We are always watching American movies, so I love when on the rare occasion a movie is made in Edinburgh. Trainspotting T2 was released in the UK on the 27th January and will be in cinemas in the USA on the 17th of March.
It was the best film I'd seen in a long time. My dad got abit excited when he spotted Irvine Welsh in the film. He kept nudging me, saying that's my mate haha. I've had people say they have never heard of Edinburgh, so this really shows our city. Though New Yorkers said to me they used to think the Scottish were all high on heroin haha. We don't really take cocaine or heroin and our houses aren't decorated like the 1980's. My house is in fact is decorated New York theme. I like to think us Scottish are friendly people. Trainspotting T2 film shows the trams, Princes street, Edinburgh castle and Arthur's seat. Also a lot of the time in the film you see irn bru bottles in the background in houses during the film, that's so me. Am guilty of being an irn bru addict.
My favourite part of the film was when they were sitting drinking at Harvey Nichols and Veronica says - choose life. Renton says choose this and that and how we share our bio on Facebook with strangers. It's true the generation we live in, we blog and share our life. Things are different now a days. I love seeing people from all over the world visit my blog. I earn money blogging, but it's not a lot. I choose to blog, who knows where my blog will end up.
Do you ever set life goals? I always imagined myself married by my early 20's and had all my kids, before I was 30. Something that has been bothering me the closer I get near to 30, is being alone. This certainly feels like the most personal and open blog post I have written.
In high school me and my friend Kristen would sit and talk about our weddings to our future husbands. We said we'd be bridesmaids at each others weddings and even planned our future kids names. My friend moved back to America and now lives in Las Vegas, so now it looks like if she's bridesmaid I'll need to have a Las Vegas wedding. The problem was when it came to a guy saying he liked me, I was the who got red cheeks and get myself in a panic.
I left school at 16 and met a guy at my work. He was 7 years older than me and asked if I had msn (showing my age now, msn was the thing when I was a teenager). He'd always ask me to go to the cinema with him, but I was shy and had little confidence. I'd panic everytime a guy asked to meet me. I'd change the subject and became known as the person good at changing subjects.
When I turned 18, my brothers had girlfriends and brought girls round to the house. I thought to myself, you only live once and got the courage to meet the guy from work. He told me he had a daughter, when he was 17. When I got home, I told my dad that the guy has a daughter. The next day the guy came round to my house and walked in. My dad came through and shouted get out my daughters bedroom. I felt so embarrassed me and the guy both walked out. We ended up going to his house, but I was scared if he told his parents how my dad reacted. When I got home my parents said you can't meet him because he has a child already. It made me want to meet him even more. Whenever I came home, my parents would shout you better not be meeting him. I wish my parents let me learn from my mistake, but I carried on meeting him. He'd randomly cut off contact from me and appear out the blue. I'd get a txt saying "I miss you" and he'd say he was depressed. One day he asked to meet me, then last min said he couldn't meet. My friends said I could meet them at a pub. One of my friends said turn around. I looked around and the guy was sitting with a girl with red hair. At the time I had dyed my hair auburn red. It made me hate having red hair, so I dyed my hair blonde after that.
I'd go out to clubs and meet guys through friends of friends. I'd dance with guys, but when they wanted to kiss, I'd distance myself incase they expected to come to my house sometime. I knew I could never bring a guy to my house. My friend Kirsten would always get drunk and talk to random guys outside clubs and I'd stand beside her just smiling. Whenever I got home I knew my parents would say I was meeting the guy, when I was actually at clubs with friends.
My brother would always have a girl round. I said to my mum, why is she allowed in the house ? My mum said because they are engaged and getting married.
It makes me feel like I'll be forever single, seeing all my friends marry and have kids. It would be nice to have someone who wants to love me to themselves and to have that romanticness.
Now my mums trying to sell me off. My mum said you need to find happiness, before she gets old and loopy. My mum went by 2 managers from my work after she'd been out drinking and said "am trying to get my daughter married". I thought oh god and looked the other way. I got told at the night out a few weeks ago (my mum works at the same job as me) my mum went up to that same manager, asking if he'll marry her daughter. What a way to ruin your reputation haha.
I bought a 2 bedroom house, as I was planning ahead for my future and it's been 3 years I've lived alone now. If you think you'll make the perfect husband, apply within hahaha joking.